Nicole: How she raises her shoulders and holds on with both hands to nurse--with eyes wide, wide open--when she's super hungry. Her extra-delighted smile when her mouth gets big and she hiccup-laughs. The pursed lip, big-eyed surprised face she made as a newborn. When she's sleeping and readjusts with her closed-mouth sleeping-hard face. Long cooing conversations. How she stretches her arms up straight when she's liberated from her swaddle in the morning.